Well, I seem to have passed a milestone today. I watched Ike Cook's memorial service prepared for sadness and heaviness but it never came. I was awash with memories of the years that I knew Ike and Opal but not sad or depressed. So I took a chance and went to support our 9/11 tribute at the drive-in tonight and I was again surprised by the lack of negative emotions. It was a beautiful night and though not a hard hitting Gospel film one person did go forward to be saved.
The emotional wreckage that grief left me with made me defensive in the sense that I was afraid to feel good and I was diligent to protect myself from feeling bad. I was weary with feeling bad and sad. Today I was able to feel a tinge of sadness over the loss of a good friend and to feel the anguish of those who suffered and lost in the 9/11 tragedy. But it was not overwhelming or surprising.
Jesus said that He would heal the broken hearted. I feel as though my broken heart has been healed today. For that I am grateful.
No comments:
Post a Comment